5.06.2011

On the Move

So, a little over two months ago we announced that Brandon got a job offer in Athens and we were moving back to the Classic City in mid June. Well, many things have taken place since then, and it turns out the job did not end up working out for reasons I can't disclose on the internet. Fortunately, Brandon is able to keep his job where we are in the meantime. The owner here is very excited to be keeping Brandon on board. In essence, it looks like we will be staying in South Georgia for a while longer. There really is so much more to this story as you can imagine. We both have been on a complete emotional roller coaster the past few weeks and I really don't know what to think. God obviously has a plan for us, and while I am very disappointed at not moving back to Athens right now, I have to believe (which I am still trying to convince myself to do) that this is the right thing because of the way it all panned out. At least that's what I keep trying to tell my heart. I am a little aggravated with the vet in Athens for the way he handled or didn't handle certain things. I guess I just need to choose to be excited about the future and what all God has in store for us here. Yes, we are still going to be farther from family than we'd like to, but it could be worse. We had planned on trying to have a baby when we moved back to Athens, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen now either. Unless God decides otherwise, that is. After having a miscarriage down here and being so far from anyone I get very uneasy thinking about having a baby this far away from everyone and having no help after what I went through then. I know people do it all the time, but I don't have a peace about it yet. I'm not thrilled about continuing to live in an old house. We were so happy to be back in an area where we love our church, community and had many friends. I was looking forward to getting to have a bathtub and a normal functioning kitchen to get back to in Athens, but I need to be thankful instead that we have running water and a kitchen at all. I am so very thankful that Brandon has a great job after all of this. It just seemed like everything was working out and then it exploded and now we are on a completely different track. We have grown a lot over the past year, so part of me excited to see how much growing we will do over the next year. The Lord is really working on this contentment thing with me, apparently. Please continue to pray for us as we accept what we've been dealt and we transition to staying down here for who knows how long. I am going to need some real strength and courage and try to take each day as it comes and not worry about what is going to happen in a year or five or ten. I am learning how to let go more and more each day. Yet, lately I have been feeling more and more discouraged each day. It seems like everything just falls into place with everyone else-they have the perfect marriage, house, car, baby, the list goes on. Things just seem work out for so many others and we can't even make a plan for the next year. In my heart I want to be more settled and start a family, but now is not the time and I'm beginning to wonder if it will ever happen. I know all of that is completely ridiculous and not true, but of course I'm other side of it all just trying to hang on. I know I am rambling, but this is my journal and these are my thoughts. I'm recording this for us. We are going to Athens today to start packing up some things as Brandon's parents have put our home on the market. Please keep us in your prayers. xoxo

“I wait for you, O LORD; you will answer, O Lord my God.” (NIV) Psalm 38:15

“But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” (NIV) Romans 8:25

22 comments:

  1. Oh Cherish, I admire your everlasting desire to trust in the Lord. I'll be praying for you in this time of crazy emotions. I can't imagine what you're going through! But those verses are what will get you through (:

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  2. I hope you find the courage and strength that you need right now! A little advice I keep reminding myself on right now as I go through my own troubles right now is live in the present, don't worry about your future, it will all play out in the end.
    It is easy to think of what you don't have or won't have, but harder to remind yourself of what you do have. Embrace this. Think of all the positive things around you.

    As for wanting a baby and waiting for a perfect time... there is no perfect time, I have learned this. You will keep waiting for a time that does not exist. I know you have gone through soo much with this and that it would be great to have family around, but it might just make them come around more often. Remember, you and your husband are your own little family.

    Good luck with this and if you ever need to talk, I am just an email away!!

    Take care,

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  3. Cherish, I really admire you for writing this post. But even more, I am so encouraged by your hope and trust in the Lord. Just from the little bit that you share on your blog, it is obvious that these have been some tough months for you. But even during all of those trials, you have seemed to cling to the Lord. Our situations aren't anywhere near the same, but we both know a thing or two about having to be patient and trust that He has greater plans. Thank you for continually being such a great example of a woman of God! Praying for you and Brandon!

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  4. Oh dear, my heart aches for you. I have several times been on that roller coaster that it sounds like you two have just be on and it is no fun...no fun, at all! I so wish you could meet my daughter since y'all are so close! I think you would love each other. (((hugs and continually praying!)))

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  5. I'm sorry that you are going through all of this, transitioning is SO hard and I am praying for you and Brandon. Since being in California (the 3/4 short days that we have) I have realized how much being around family and friends means to me. It's hard to be far away and even when you have so much to be thankful for, it's sometimes hard to see the positive side. Keep your head up, you're such a strong woman and great things will come.

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  6. Praying for you and Brandon sweet woman friend of mine :)

    I am always here for you girl!

    keep your chin up , and know as you endure trials there are triumphs ;) I'm proud of your hope and trust in Jesus even if it is hard at times! I can write a book about my own trials and now im just getting the triumphs but i wont bore you haha!

    I pray for continue strength hope trust in Jesus and that it becomes easier for you as each day passes. He has great plans for y'all and time will only tell the plans as they unfold! keep him first and he will provide! He always looks out for us , as we are his children even though at times we dont understand and ask why but we will understand later. I know speaking of my own this is easier said than done but I will continue to pray that it becomes easier for you sweet girl!

    XXOO

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  7. I feel the same way sometimes..."everyone else has the perfect little life." You are not alone, Cherish!! Cling to trust in the Lord and He will see y'all through. He has amazing things in store for y'all and I just can't wait to see what they are!! I wish that we could live near y'all. I truly know that we'd be best friends!

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  8. I know this feeling! It seems like everyone has it all together and nice and neat and I don't. I am so sorry things did not work out for y'all. I'll be praying that you can find peace in the situation. I know it's hard when it's not what you want. I'm praying for you girl!!

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  9. I'm sorry to hear this :( God always has a plan for us even though it's hard to know what it is at times!

    Now maybe we can all get together since y'all will still be in the area :)

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  10. God definitely knows what He is doing. I think that this is a lesson we constantly undergo. I can't stand these seasons of just clinging to faith because nothing else makes sense but I know God has his mighty hand all over your situation. I will definitely pray!

    ♥cheche

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  11. I think a lot of people feel like the lives of those around them are perfect but God has designed the timing differently for everyone. Are there times when I wish I had what my friends had? Yes!! But I just trust that I will have it someday if that's what God wants. Glad He's got you there for little bit longer...there is a reason!!!!

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  12. You are definitely in my thoughts and prayers! Keep your chin up; I know at times when my life gets chaotic or disappointing I become a wreck, but in the end everything seems to fall into place. Maybe this job didn't work out, because another, BETTER one is coming along. Everything happens for a reason and though it's hard to see that now, just try and stay positive and have faith that everything will work out like it's meant to in the end. Sending you hugs!

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  13. Hey sweet girl! Although I am glad to hear that you get to stay in South Ga, I know what your going through. It is always frustrating to finally be accepting towards the Lord's plans for your life and then something happens and just when you heart was right, HE allows the plan to change. He knows what is right for you and Brandon and obviously wants to keep ya'll down South at least a little bit longer. XOXO Melissa

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  14. Thinking of you and Brandon on Mother's Day. Life isn't easy or fair all the time for sure. You and B have your focus right - HE has a plan for our future - not to harm us but to prosper us. Sending prayers for you!!

    PS - a friend of mine told me something a couple of months ago that has been playing over and over in my head all weekend. She told me I became a mother the moment my baby was conceived and nobody can take that away from me, no matter how long my baby lived. :)

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  15. Things will work out, just keep your faith in HIM. I, too, struggled, and still struggle with similar feelings. I'm praying for y'all!

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  16. Great blog, Cherish! I completely feel you on the struggle to trust when you see things working out for those around you and that makes you wonder what you are doing wrong. But you are where God has planned for you to be now. Sounds like a good thing that your husband won't be working with the vet in Athens based on how he handled this situation! I'll say a prayer for you guys for sure!

    ~Tiffany
    http://tiffanyd22.blogspot.com

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  17. I am so sorry for the disappointment you must feel. The Lord knows what he's doing even when we don't. I pray that He would put some joy in your heart today and show you how much He loves you. Praying for you guys!

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  18. I am so sorry for the disappointment you must feel. The Lord knows what he's doing even when we don't. I pray that He would put some joy in your heart today and show you how much He loves you. Praying for you guys!

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  20. Oh friend,

    I'm soo sorry about the change in plans! I know how it is to know you are supposed to feel one way, but you can't seem to get there...
    I love the verse in Psalms where David says that he pours out his complaint before the Lord. It was so freeing for me to learn that the Lord is totally ok with me venting to Him :) He is big enough to handle it! and when I pour out those negative feelings to Him, He can take them and make them into something beautiful!
    I love u & I'll be praying for you!!
    Hang in there :)

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    Congratulations!

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  22. So, I don't mean to be a stalker, because I just commented on one of your miscarriage posts. (I've just been jumping around your blog randomly - obviously. :) )But - I totally feel you on this one - I try really hard to wait for God's time - and you are right - if we let ourselves, it is easy to dwell on how things seem to just fall into place for everyone else on the planet. But - I at least find comfort in reading this and realizing I am not the only one who feels this way sometimes. My husbands/my job situations are both "interesting" right now and I feel like our lives are on hold - kids, "normal" living situation, distance, etc. Hang in there!

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